Dear God,

(On the way home tonight)

Luke- Mom, sometimes I wish I was a wizard so I could wave my wand and make my prayers come true

Me- But you don't have to be a wizard or have a magic wand. You just have to pray to Jesus and have the faith that He will give you everything you need.

Luke- That doesn't work.

Me- Why do you think that???

Luke - Because I pray for my Daddy to be here every night and Jesus still hasn't sent him back to me.


Tell me.....how am I suppose to answer that?

When we are suppose to have faith like children but yet I am watching my six year old loose faith in the only God he has ever known because He can't give him his daddy back?

How am I suppose to explain healing to him when he knows that if You would have healed his daddy he would still be here.

How am I suppose to encourage prayer when the one thing he prays for will never be answered?

How am I suppose to tell him that no matter how much he begs You to send his daddy back that You can't?

How am suppose to handle that broken look in his eyes again....and again....and again.

I can't take this.

I am angry.

And I want answers.

Because.....

 Sometimes being a big brother.....

 

Is way cooler than being a super hero

Scratching The Itch

I told you last week that I had been bit by the decorating bug. Fortunately this weekend I got to scratch that itch a little because it was driving me crazy! Ever get that sudden urge or need for change??? Yeah, that's me lately. Luckily last month Scott and I finally found a comforter set that we both agreed on at Marshalls of all places. I had put it on layaway because I knew if I got it right then I wouldn't be able to fight the temptation of re-doing our whole room around it. So I waited.....until last Wednesday that is when my impatience got the best of me :). Needless to say I spent this weekend, thrifting for things I needed, painting, and printing out pictures. I am in love with the way it turned out except for the paint. I like it but the blue is a bit overwhelming and I think it would've been better as an accent wall. It's growing on me though. Now for the before and afters!

Before

 

 my side

 

                                               his side                                               the comforter

                                                                 wall going in to the bathroom

After

 comforter

 

his side

 my side

 going in to the bathroom

 aka my new favorite place in the house

(Almost) Wordless Wednesday

No Turning Back

Deer Resident

I have been noticing your presence a good bit lately

Either you think I don't notice you standing in my yard when I come and go or you just don't care

I would hope that you don't think that I am the one intruding on your turf

But the look you give me in passing, as if you own the joint, makes me believe otherwise

Upon further investigation I have also noticed that you have taken a liking to my plants..... my flowers......and the rabbits food

Seeing that you do not pay rent, utilities, or help out with the grocery bill this kind of behavior is unacceptable.

Deer season is right around the corner, either pay up or leave.

Consider this your final warning

Thanks, The Wife and Daughter of Skilled Hunters

Calling All Prayer Warriors

If you have been around here the past couple months you may remember me mentioning my cousin Sarah a time or two. She is now 35 weeks pregnant with our little Emilee. The doctors have been keeping a close eye on her due to the fact that this sweet little girl is about 5 weeks behind on her growth curve.

Up until today she has been growing just enough for the doctors to allow Sarah to continue with her pregnancy but that has now changed. They have noticed some minor complications and due to the circumstances will be inducing Sarah by Monday of next week because they believe Emilee can strive better on the outside.

Will join me in prayer for my sweet, sweet,cousin and her unborn child? Because as a mother I can only imagine the uneasiness resting in her heart. But I know Someone who gives peace. Peace that passes all understanding. And He has gone before the doctors and paved the way for this sweet angel. And it is in Him that I choose to trust.

Takin' It Back To The Old School

No, I'm not about to flash back to the 90's with some Woop There It Is, but I am going to take you a little further. The other day while thrifting with Nic I came across an old timey looking dress in the little girls section. After we shared a good laugh over it I couldn't help but think how cute it would be to dress up little girls in the same kind of outfits and take antique looking pictures with them. So I snatched it up and headed out with Mat the next day to try it out. They aren't exactly what I had in mind, but they are pretty close. I would love to find some old wagons and boxes and do them in a downtown square next time. I think that would help me achieve the vision I had in mind. But for the time being these will do :)

Consider Yourself Warned

Disclaimer: The following pictures were meant to document Lily Harris' newborn stage. The side effects include, but are not limited to, giddiness from over exposure to pure cuteness, extreme jealously over her cute little features and petite self (especially if your baby was like mine and came out the size of a 6 month old), sudden hot-flashes and the need to jump your spouse in hopes of creating something similar, the uncontrollable urge to say awwwww after every picture, and just straight up baby fever.

Like I said....consider yourself warned.

Random Friday

(Although it's technically Saturday)

Why I shouldn't be given a paint brush after 10pm.

Thoughts For Thursday

1. Yes, I am alive. Thanks for worrying :) I had a minor disagreement with Comcast (go ahead and laugh amber) and have not had internet since last week.

2. That being said, I am loaded down with pictures, posts, and lots of new stuff for Mattie Fran Designs so make sure to keep an eye out.

3. Last week and this morning I got the chance to snuggle the sweetest baby, besides my two of course, that I have ever seen, Miss Lily. Lawd help me! Either my husband or I need to get fixed SOON because she gives me baby fever something fierce!!!! (newborn pictures of her coming soon :))

4. I have been bite by the home decorating bug and am dieing for a change aorund my house. Problem is everything in my house is red, green, and brown so to change one room I have to change all of them. So if anybody has any cheap decorating ideas I could steal or know of anyone selling cheap home decor let me know.

5. I have been with out Matalie since Friday and Luke since Sunday and while this week has been total bliss I am missing my babies like crazy! Especially Matalie. She has been with me since day one...no daycare...never stayed away longer than a few days....so a week is killing me. It makes me wonder how any mother could abandon their child.

6. Which leades to my last thought, which is more of a request. My sisterwife Nicole heads to court tomorrow for which will hopefully be the last time they are there until they adopt Gabriel. Please pray peace over her and her family. Although we know who holds Gabes future it doesn't make the process any easier.